Last Friday night I received a stern talking-to from God. To say that I was not happy would be an understatement. It was mainly about my endless need to control my life. Well, God wanted to put an end to that. He literally would not allow me to sleep until I had agreed to give up the reins. If anyone has spent more than 20 minutes with me, you know that I'm quite a domineering person, so this whole relinquishing of power was really hard. So, after much weeping and gnashing of teeth, I conceded. I was then lead to pray about things and people that I didn't necessarily want to, but I did anyway because I knew that He wanted me to.
So during the course of this week, God has shown me that I've been missing all of the whisperings of the Holy Spirit. I never realized how busy I had made myself. Quieting my mind to listen to Him took much more effort than should have been necessary. But I did it, and when I heard Him speak to me I would do my best to obey. Whether it be talking to a coworker about grace & mercy, or simply praying for someone that was brought to my mind.
Not that this week has been without challenges, however. It felt like I was constantly being attacked (sometimes literally) and in those times I would have to calm myself and remember that, although the afflictions of the righteous are many, the LORD delivers them from them ALL. And sure enough, He did.
The Lord also lead me to write two new songs this week. And, quite honestly, I was so blessed by that. He and I have some of the most peaceful, intense, healing, and joyous times at the piano. I praise Him for music... Simply the fact that He uses that way to communicate His love to me, to US, is astounding! How beautiful.
I'm turning 21 in the next couple of weeks which is simply mind-blowing. I cannot believe how time is FLYING as of late! It seems like just yesterday I was turning 16... But, you know, for the first time in a LONG time, I'm not worried about my future. All I know is that I'm going to keep listening to the whispers of the Holy Spirit and go where He leads me.
So here I am, following Him without hesitation...
Loving Him and knowing that I am loved by Him...
Friday, May 22, 2009
*sigh*
I just typed the biggest blog post on here, and in one keystroke, it was deleted.
Thanks, blogspot. Thanks.
Thanks, blogspot. Thanks.
Tuesday, May 19, 2009
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